Motherhood~lovely times and learning times
Do you ever look at your child and think...Wow! God is amazing to have created this! Wow! I'm the one who is physically sustaining this child (ultimately God, of course)! Wow! I have a big responsibility for this life in my care!
I had a thought the other day about motherhood; its lovely times and its learning times. I'm so thankful for the times when things are going smoothly as a mom. When the learning times come, I'm not so thankful. I'm realizing that I need to take the good with the bad, and learn to trust God and be thankful for both. Especially being thankful for the blessing of health and support from others.
I had a thought the other day about motherhood; its lovely times and its learning times. I'm so thankful for the times when things are going smoothly as a mom. When the learning times come, I'm not so thankful. I'm realizing that I need to take the good with the bad, and learn to trust God and be thankful for both. Especially being thankful for the blessing of health and support from others.
posted by Heidamos @ 3:00 PM
2 Comments:
At 4:33 PM,
equichick8 said…
Hey Ladies, just to let you know, equichick is Adina. (equi = horse, chick = super cool woman/girl). Yeah right!
I'm constantly rethinking this motherhood thing. I sometimes feel like the babysitter and not the mom. I'm really hoping that one day I will feel like I know what I am doing. The second-guessing that I do, (as we all talked about today at my house), really squashes my confidence that I can do this 'hood thing. It's good to have the support of all you ladies.
I find that I constantly question whether Lawton can do his part of parenthood. Why do I do this? Especially if I'm not even sure if I'm doing the right thing myself?
Since I'm the one who spends the most time with M, I figure I know all about her.
I'm wrong.
i.e. I can only get her to nap for half and hour, my mother-in-law can get her to sleep for 2 hrs. (this boggles my mind).
This is where I am trying to change my thinking and quit being so hard on Lawton (which he resents) and so hard on myself as well, (the more difficult task).
Baby comes, enter new chapter of wifehood.
I also feel I deserve more attention from my husband than I get. How twisted!! His attention is divided now more than ever. People who are not Christians might say that what I'm feeling is normal. I *know*, that as a Christian, there are better roads to follow here. No need to go down the "resentment" and "guilt" spirals. And I know what the better roads are.
Now to find the time to pursue them....
Despite all this, I still think about M as an amazing wonder. Beautiful tiny teacher, teaching me and Lawton to be good parents, and better followers of Christ than we are.
-adina
At 2:28 PM,
Heidamos said…
I think that this conversation deserves a blog of its own. Watch for it! :)
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